The above image says it all. This is how I feel about myself 90% of the time. Just looking at that image, my thought process starts "Yes, I feel just like that!" then goes to: "well, I don't have a flat stomach, or such thin thighs, and her chest is definitely bigger than mine... Even when I'm trying to make the point to myself that what I see may not actually be reality, I'm still finding ways to put myself down. Shesh!
A workout can change that. My 1st workout, after I ranted on here about change, was amazing! I forgot how good I feel when those endorphins set off in my brain; I felt sexy, more confident, happier! All I did was work out for 20 minutes, no way I had full results from 1 workout, but I simply felt better!
But already I'm getting into a rut. The old voices are coming back saying "Ugh, this is too hard! I hate this! Can't we just deal with being a little overweight?" It's been 2 weeks and I'm trying to talk myself out of this again. The endorphins aren't coming on as strong, and I'm just not loving it.
This does not mean it's time to give up, nor should I push myself harder. I don't know about you, but when someone Tells me to do something I already dislike doing, it makes me want to do it even less. That's exactly what I'm doing here. Not going to stick to it this way.
It simply means I need to change things up more. What it means is I don't enjoy it. Working out does have enjoyable aspects, though. I love listening to the music. I love having some "me" time. So now I just have to incorporate that into an elevated heart rate for about 30 minutes.
The best thing about working out is there's no wrong thing to do. Yes, there are wrong ways to work out, but only if you cause yourself pain. And yes, it's also true that if I want a perfect butt I have to do more butt exercises, but that's not my plan.
I don't want perfect anything! What fun is there in being perfect? People expecting things of you, being jealous of you; way too much pressure and attention. Now THAT I'm too lazy for!
So my goal: strengthen my body. Do some stuff here, some stuff there, keep an overall strength. Strong muscles now prevents injuries later. I do NOT want to spend weeks or months on end racking up doctors visits, physical therapy bills, MRI's, XRay's, FORGET THAT, too! So if I have to push myself a little now to prevent that later, it's worth it; right?
And if I can lose 15 pounds in the process, all the better!
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