I am a firm believer that …
1.) Everything happens for a reason
2.) Everything happens when it should happen, not when you
want it to happen.
I have looked back at
moments in my life when I wanted so badly for things to happen my way, and they
went another way.
Example: I had a HUGE crush on this guy. He was coming into
my work, back at my ‘Subway’ days. He was flirting with me & a friend of
mine, also a co-worker. I was so sure he actually liked me over her, but it was
she who ended up being asked out & dating him. I was crushed, but I won’t
let a man come between friends. He cannot help who he’s more attracted to and,
so long as he isn’t still flirting with me, I’ll survive my misery in my own
time and be happy for them the best that I can be. 6 months later they’re
splits, he’s cheated on her, and she found out he’s a pathological liar. Not
only can I stop faking my happiness for it being her and not me, I can add a “Thank
you, Universe!” for not putting me through that drama! Sometimes the universe/
fate/ God (whatever you want to call it) knows better than you do.
That’s the message I’m starting to get in Eat, Pray, Love.
But Chapter 9 is covering that it’s OK to ask the Universe/ Fate/ God for
things you really want, too. Our Heroine petitions God for her divorce to be
over, and explains why it won’t just help her, but lots of people who are being
affected by the misery of these 2 ex-lovers. Really, it’s not a bad idea. At
worst, it will get my feelings out.
Dear God,
I am respectfully requesting you intervene to take my
husband out of the Navy before his 3 additional years are complete with an honorable
discharge. His body is physically breaking down at 28 years old. His knees are
aching, his back always hurts, and he has lost sensation in his toes. He cannot
receive medical treatment for this because his ship’s physician says to “watch
it” and that “it doesn't seem life-threatening”. He is not entitled to a 2nd
opinion, which we both feel he greatly needs. This body of his needs to last him
another 80+ years and it will not if this abuse continues. My years in the
medical field have taught me that the damage he is doing now may cripple him at
an early age later. This will affect our future child (children) and possibly
grandchildren who would want him to keep up with them.
He is struggling mentally with the amount of tasks presented
to him. You must be witnessing to his continued work without sleep or even
proper rest and the stress it is putting on him mentally and physically.
He is growing to be an angrier man for it. Anger is a poison that will eat at his
soul. I am begging his release before it consumes him and forever changes him.
I am requesting my own sanity and stability be considered as
well. While my husband is away and while I am without the people I love most, I
feel disconnected from who I really am chip away within my heart. I do not feel
as vibrant, as happy, as passionate about life as I normally am. This is a result
of loss of the human connection, which studies have proven is very important to
sanity. It is the reason “isolation” is a strong punishment in prison. I am imprisoned
in this harsh punishment but I have done no crime.
My family suffers for my loss of emotional support from the
2,000 distance, as does my husbands. My friends looked to me for support and
love and are at a loss to that, too. It isn't just for my husband and me that I
ask for an intervention, but for the lives of everyone in my heart.
I appreciate the blessings you have given me, and do my best
not to overlook all the things in my life I have to be grateful for. Compared
to other places, such as the tragedy in Oklahoma, I should not be upset with
what I have in my life right now. I believe you love every soul individually
and would not want any to suffer. Therefore, I am respectfully requesting your
Devine help to release my husband from the Navy and allow us to return home,
where he can begin to heal mentally and physically, and my soul will once again
feel filled.
Thank you for your love,
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