Bump in the Night

... A morning e-mail to my husband overseas...

One of the things I find hard to overcome is the security I feel having you sleep next to me, or even just be at home. For probably about the 50th time since you left, last night as I was drifting off I heard a noise. It was probably the neighbors but it sounded like it came from downstairs. I was just about to drift off to sleep at the time so maybe I imagined it. I flipped the light by my bed on and grabbed my cell phone and waited for another sound. It was a good 10 minutes before I was calm enough to turn the light off, even then I slept with the cell phone under the pillow and my hand on it. Those kind of moments happened in my old apartment, too, but it was easier for me to relax there- more people to potentially hear my screams. I'm not sure these neighbors would even bother checking if I started screaming. Doesn't leave much for comfort as I try to ease back to sleep. Oh I can't wait until you'll be home.